My motivation for most everything has spiraled, and I haven’t done much of anything lately. I quit my school choir after the Christmas concert because I wasn’t enjoying it anymore. I haven’t been going to band as often because it’s too hard to wake myself up and walk to school for 7:15am twice a week. Assignments with school are starting to pile up because I don’t focus enough to do them at school, so I tell myself I’ll do it at home and I never get around to actually doing it, so I have around 7 assignments due/overdue right now.
I have continued to read although it is slightly less now. I’ve started beta reading and editing for people which has been a new experience I’m hoping to keep doing.
With writing, I still love writing poetry, and I’ve written a few things here and there, or a handful at a time when we were at the trailer for example and I felt isolated with no service or wifi for 3 days and I couldn’t contact my boyfriend. It was a lot on my mental health, and knowing that I could be at the trailer every other weekend this summer is a lot. So I used reading and writing to take my mind off the situation and focus on something else, which did help a bit.
I started a book….something I don’t believe I have mentioned here yet, but I did!
It was going to be a YA Contemporary, because I’m use to reading in that genre so it felt natural that I’d write in it too. The book itself didn’t start off as a book though. It was an assignment in my Writer’s Craft course that exceeded the word count limit. So I transferred it to another document and went back to it, in hopes that I could turn it into something greater.
I didn’t have a plot figured out, I was writing line by line as I found many authors do. I kept note of character traits and main plot points, but everything else I was figuring out as I wrote.
And it all went well for a bit. My word count is currently sitting somewhere around 11.2k words that make up around 11 (short) chapters. I figured out the big events and how I’d want them connected, I told teachers, friends, and family about my idea.
But again, I lost motivation. A few days ago, I opened my document and didn’t want to write whatsoever. The concept seemed boring to me, and I was doubting my ability to turn my writing into an actual novel, let alone actually publish it later on. So I didn’t add to it.
A few weeks ago, after winning a giveaway, I received a book of writing prompts. As I flipped through, I landed on a page and read the prompt and fell in love with it. At the time, I bookmarked it so I’d have it in mind. When I lost motivation for my first novel, I thought I’d test my luck with this one.
I am now 2.3k words in, at one chapter so I’ve included much more imagery and description which I feel is a big improvement from the start of my other WIP. I’m hoping to continue this one and that the motivation will stay till the end. Otherwise, the most I can do is push through.