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Adam Silvera reminds us that there’s no life without death and no love without loss in this devastating yet uplifting story about two people whose lives change over the course of one unforgettable day.
This will be a continuation of my last post, which you can find here Book Review: Simply An Enigma by Brittany Evans and Chelsea Lauren
Earlier this year, Brittany Evans (Brittany’s Blog) contacted me via Instagram. I followed her on her blog and read all of the posts and she messaged and said, “Hey, I’m co-writing a book, would you like to beta read for us?”… or something along those lines at least!
I jumped at the chance, not only because I thought it would be super neat to read a book before its release date, but because one of the main characters, is asexual (which for anyone who doesn’t know, so am I).
I was like, yes, give me this representation!!!!
More below!
Hi everyone! I’ve posted a handful of blog posts on my motivation ups and downs in the last while in relation to different aspects of my life.
This post, as you can see from the title, will be about reading and writing from the last while.
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Stress sucks. I’ve been kind of stressed lately with lots of things, and I need to try to get my life back on track.
For starters, homework was piling up, and I didn’t hand in assignments on time. The last two weeks or so, I haven’t been able to focus on much, so it made it really hard to stay on top of school work. I just kept seeing work added to my plate, and deadlines coming closer, but had no motivation to do anything about it.
On Thursday I believe it was, my family got the news of my foster brother being adopted out of our family. That was really hard. I had a mental breakdown, and didn’t do any work that evening. The following day at school, I didn’t do any work either. I told my teachers I was taking a ‘mental health day’ and would work on my stuff over the weekend. I just needed that mental break, because everything was all over the place.
I have come across this quote many times on social media, and it has become one of my favourites.
The idea of consuming paint is rather hard to swallow, but it’s understandable when you understand why someone would do so. The colour yellow represents happiness, and if you’re down and depressed as Van Gogh was, it’s easier to see why he would consume yellow paint.
You should aspire to love yourself always, but love yourself even more on the bad days
-unknown (found on Tumblr)
The above is a quote I found on Tumblr earlier this week. The importance of self love, is not yet a universal concept. We often love others more than we love ourselves, which I think is normal, especially when you don’t think much of yourself. If you have a low self esteem, or self image, it’s easy to put other people above you, and treat yourself like you’re nothing.
Lately, I’ve had a lot of down moods, or “off ” days, and am still having anxiety. In these moods, I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to socialize with most of my friends, any really except for my boyfriend…I think this may be because I just feel so comfortable with him and want him with me when I’m having off days. During these days, I also don’t focus on much, which kinda sucks when I actually have to do something, like school work, because I can’t focus on anything… it’s easier to just scroll on my phone because I don’t have the motivation to do anything else.
Especially in the last while with these down days, I’ve found that I need to focus more on the little things that bring me happiness. Life gets stressful, and sometimes you just need to pull yourself up and find happiness in the little things. Find the candle in the darkness.
Below is a list of things I find my happiness in:)
Turning Pages 